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Last, but not least, here’s a picture of me that is recent that I like =).
All these fun pictures were brought to you by me and inspired by Kim Kim and her posting about us women who have placed and how we’re glamorous =).
Make sure to check out all the other gorgeous pictures of all of us =).
Kim, Nicole, and Kateri have some amazing and gorgeous pictures up on their blogs too.
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Woo hoo, check me out – this was always one of my favorite pictures of the glamor photos I had taken back when I was 20 or 21.
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Here’s a glamor picture of me that was taken back when I was about 20 or 21, I’m 29 turning 30 this year EEK lol.
I’ve found music speaks to me and my soul like nothing else can sometimes and so I was looking for songs about healing as mentioned in the previous post and found quite a few songs.
The two songs that stuck out to me and touched me most that I love and want to adapt as my motto now are the one that I mentioned in the previous post of Trouble by Lizz Wright and this one which is Imagine Me by Kirk Franklin.
Here are the lyrics to Kirk Franklin’s Imagine Me and I’m going to post the music video to his song in the next post here.
These songs speak to me like nothing has spoken to me in a long time and they are what I want and what I’m working for even more now than I was before because I have to stop being so hard on myself for my past – it’s not helping anything.
Okay so here’s the lyrics:
KIRK FRANKLIN LYRICS
“Imagine Me”
Imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I’m finally happy cause
I imagine me
Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again
[Chorus:]
Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally finally I can…
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can…
Imagine me
Being strong
And not letting people break me down
You won’t get that joy this time around
Can you imagine me?
In a world (in a world) where nobody has to live afraid
Because of your love fears gone away
Can you imagine me?
[Bridge:]
Letting go of my past
And glad I have another chance
And my heart will dance
‘Cause I don’t have to read that page again
[Chorus x2]
[Vamp:]
Gone, gone, it’s gone, all gone
[Thanks to TAmeika (meika1787@aol.com) for these lyrics]
[Thanks to Jadapinkettsno1fan@yahoo.com, ANGIEDST29@YAHOO.COM, dangerousprincess082004@yahoo.com, kaila9109@yahoo.com for correcting these lyrics]
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Stay tuned and make sure to check out the video of Kirk Franklin’s Imagine Me in the next post =).
Here’s one of the songs I found while looking for songs about healing and I have it on my myspace page if you would like to hear it.
Here are the lyrics to this song:
Trouble by Lizz Wright
Trouble in the air
I don’t want it
But I’ve got to breathe
It´s coming through the door
Behind the shadows that surround me when I sleep
Somehow I know
that I can´t pray this away
I´ll keep my head down and get up on this train
This train
Ooo …
I´m gonna ride this pain like a wave
Lord, make me over I don´t wanna be afraid
And when my time is come and gone
I don´t wanna be the one who can´t let go
What if I get lost
I call out to you and you don´t save me?
The water comes too close
I don´t have the time to give
what you gave to me?
Well, as long as my name don´t change, I´ll be the same
I loved you more than time
Forever can´t take that away
Ooo …
Can´t take that away
Just let me ride this pain like a wave
Lord, make me over I don’t wanna be afraid
And when my time is come and gone
I don´t wanna be the one who can´t let go
Yeah, yeah, yeah
There is a river
Running by the train
It ain´t troubled
It´s just laying there, wading in the wind
Wading in the wind
Wading in the wind
Just let me ride this pain like a wave
Lord, make me over I don’t wanna be afraid
And when my time is come and gone
I don´t wanna be the one who can´t let go
Let me ride this pain like a wave
Make me over I don’t wanna be afraid
And when my time is come and gone
I don´t wanna be the one who can´t let go
Yeah, yeah
I´ll move on
Yeah, yeah
Ride
Yeah, yeah
Ooo, yeah …
Okay, first off for the posts that are pouring out of me now, it seems…
I want to say Happy Birthday to my nephew out there somewhere that my sister placed for adoption. He’s 22 years old today and I hope he’s had a good life with a great family and always felt loved.
I hope that maybe someday if possible we can know about my birth nephew and my sister can see and talk with him.
Until then I pray for him and hope all’s well with him always just as I pray and hope all’s well with my girls always.
Happy Birthday to you, Christopher Scott, wherever you are and whatever you’re doing today…I hope you feel loved.
Hopefully sooner rather than later too…
I came here to let you know The letting go Has taken place I have held the winter's son Become one Set my pace Isn't that what we wanted all along Freedom like a stone But I can say goodbye Now that the passion's died Still it comes so slow The letting go Piece by piece I take apart This complicated heart And I hope to find Something I can prove is real I can feel is truth I can say is mine That's all I ever wanted to be The closer that I got The further I could see But when lovers change And the night feels strange We choose our road The letting go I came here to let you know The letting go Has taken place
They always say that the struggles and the heartaches make you stronger in life, but if they make you stronger then how come I feel like a wussy little baby dealing with them every single day of my life…
Am I really stronger or do I just cave and cry like a baby sooner than before these things happened to me…
Hmmm…there’s some things to ponder…
Whatever doesn’t kill me will only make me stronger, right…sometimes I wonder though…
I started thinking this because I just heard this song…
Life ain’t always beautiful
Sometimes it’s just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart
Life ain’t always beautiful
You think you’re on your way
And it’s just a dead end road at the end of the day
But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it’s own way of takin’ it sweet time
[chorus]
No,life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it’s a beautiful ride
Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin’ all these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way
But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it’s own way of takin’ its sweet time
No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I’ll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
[Thanks to dare.you.to.forget@gmail.com, PoisonWhiskeyJWR@yahoo.com for lyrics]
and then I just heard this song… Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.
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And I’d give up forever to touch you And all I can taste is this moment And I don’t want the world to see me And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming Chorus And I don’t want the world to see me I don’t want the world to see me I just want you to know who I am |
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After hearing Iris, then I wondered about how it says everything’s made to be broken so was my heart made to be broken, was I made to be broken…I don’t know that I agree with that even though somedays I may feel that way that everything including my heart and myself was made to be broken.
Just rambling thoughts here…
Why does the pain hurt so bad sometimes and
why does it feel like my heart will break in half
from all the heartache and pain on somedays
when I want to curl up and cry it all out
But why do the tears never stop
why do the tears not even seem to help sometimes
why do I fall into this hole of sadness
feeling like I don’t deserve what I have
Why do I feel like I have to keep punishing myself
for all the things I’ve done wrong
when I didn’t know they were wrong
why do I add to my own hurt so much
Why am I so mean to myself
when I have done nothing wrong
why does it never seem to go away
all this excruciating pain…
How do I let it go
and stop hurting myself even more
how do I stop this
when all I want is to escape this pain
Why do I always question myself
why do I always question everything
Am I good enough
Do I really deserve to have another child
What if I’m not a good mother
when I do have children that I raise
What if I won’t be able to do it right
or do it good enough?
What if I won’t be able to give equal attention
to my children I raise and those I placed
What if my children feel jealous of each other
What if those I parent resent those I placed or
what if those I placed resent those I parent
Do I deserve to have more children
Will I be a good mother to more children
Do I deserve any of this
Do I deserve to be happy?
Why do I always question
and hurt myself so much?
Oh, please, just let me be free
All About a Girl 