Long Overdue Update…

…I know…since I got pregnant I’ve been not blogging as often as I use to cause I was sick so much and then cause I’ve been a little busier since I’m now a Mommy trying to keep up with things, have relaxation time and take care of my little 8 mo old monkey girl.

It’s amazing how different things are once you’re parenting your own child and I really don’t know how people do it without someone to help them cause I couldn’t do it without my awesome husband and all my family too.

Anyway there’s quite a few things I’ve thought about blogging about or meant to blog about but then I get sidetracked usually by my Lil Monkey or things that need to be done and what not.

So, I’m trying to get things more settled into a routine and all so I still haven’t figured out when or how often I may or may not blog, but it’s still something I plan to do when I can until I get more regular with it and so forth.

Anyway, I love being a mom and not just a birthmom…I love, appreciate and cherish my lil monkey so much more since I had and placed my Lil Bookworm – 9 and Sweet Pea – 7. Being a mom to my Lil Monkey now has reaffirmed to myself that I did the right thing when I placed both my girls…not that I needed the reaffirmation, but it’s been there the same looking at things and how they’ve panned out and how it is for me parenting my baby girl now.

Things with both my girls and each of their families is still really going really good and improving even more lately in our relationships. Hubby and I are planning to meet up and hang out with my 9 yr old’s mom and her new husband sometime hopefully in July. It’s been a little while since we’ve hung out with my 7 yr old’s parents but I recently talked/e-mailed online with both my girls moms and have seen some pics and heard some updates…both my girls and their families have been pretty busy lately too with things though.

I did find out recently that if my 9 yr old’s adad – her mom’s ex – wasn’t such a pain…I would most likely be seeing my 9 yr old in person and having a bit more of a one on one relationship with her already but cause of him being dumb I haven’t seen my 9 yr old in person just yet. I have talked to my 9 yr old online every so often and I know from her telling me and her mom telling me that my 9 yr old really wants to and would love to see me, hang out with me and so forth, but her adad – the ex had it put into their divorce agreement that he’s suppose to be able to know about all communication between myself and my 9 yr old and here’s where he makes things a little complicated….he had it put in their divorce agreement that if my 9 yr old’s mom invites me over to see/hang out with my 9 yr old without him knowing he’ll try to get her (the amom) put into contempt so he has to okay it/give his permission or at least know about it or something for me to be able to see my 9 yr old so yeah he’s being dumb.

But it’s only a matter of time before I’ll see my 9 yr old no matter what the adad is doing or not doing, ya know…it’s only a matter of time before I’ll see both my girls and start having more one on one relationships with them. It’ll happen when it’s meant to no matter what the adad or whoever does or doesn’t do, ya know.

So, yeah other than that I’m taking free online classes in subjects that interest me, working on doing better with diet/exercise and balancing everything and keeping in touch with both my girls and their families.

I’m also feeling more like myself again even though I’m a mom now and things were thrown out of wack for a while and they’re still not all back to normal but getting there and getting to and accepting the new normal with being a mom and parenting my first now. It’s all good…my 8 month old just started crawling about a week ago on the day she turned 8 months old and she’s really getting the hang of moving now and eating all sorts of new things in addition to still having her bottles and such. She has two bottom teeth and is working on cutting two top teeth now and she weighs 18 lbs right now and she’s still pretty tall for her age and she reminds me a lot of myself and my 7 yr old in how she looks/acts/personality sometimes too.

So, yeah things are good and not perfect of course but we’re working on things and slowly but surely getting the hang of it all with some days being better than others but then that’s how life usually goes :D.

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