I have a lot on my mind…tons lately and have talked and talked about it all…but was thinking I should sit and write some if not all of these thoughts, happenings etc. down so stay tuned cause I’ll be writing a bit within this next week, I think.
I’d write a whole lot more right now…but it’s really late or whatever you want to say and I should get some sleep before I have to get up for work soon :p.
I just have had a whirlwind happen in my life for the past 2-3 weeks it seems and there’s a lot to say etc. with one relationship having ended and another one having begun and the difference between them or rather how different the one that’s begun is than the one that ended. Then there’s A’s b-day coming up in March…she’ll be 5 years old already that filters in with everything and all the emotions plus a few other things, but yeah so you have an idea of all that I have on my mind lately that I probably should write all down as soon as possible within this week.
Anyway, gotta catch a little bit of sleep so nite nite for now :p.
Okay so I haven’t written in a while again…I know…but anyway let’s see if I can give a readers digest version and then fill in details etc. later on.
Things haven’t been going too well for a while with the boy and I and we’ve been fighting a lot lately. He won’t commit, propose or make a decision with me and marriage and I’m tired of waiting for him after I feel like I’ve been waiting and trying to work through things with him for the past year and nothing has been changing like it needs to.
Anyway, long story short although I’m sure I’ll fill you in on more later…I talked to him just the other night and told him we needed to take a break because I needed space and time away from him and so forth. Then he said well that’s fine, but I don’t think we should set a time so the terminology that was used is that we’re on a break for an indefinite amount of time to think about things. We’re going to go about living our own lives, doing our own thing, hang out with who we want, do what we want and start dating other people too. Eventually we’ll talk again to say this is what I think and here’s your stuff or what I want to do is this etc., but I honestly don’t think we’re going to get back together and have it work.
So, yeah anyway that’s a basic update and then I’ve already hung out/gone out with another guy since going on break and been in a good mood and a lot happier since starting this break for an indefinite amount of time. I also have another guy besides the one I hung out with that I like that likes me that I’m hoping to date and he’s so cute…yeah so more to come like I said.
I have a lot to say but not enough time to say it in right now so that’s what I’ll say for now and update more later =). I’m just really happy right now, which tells me right there that I did the right thing in regards to the boy and our relationship.