Anyone else feel like this that’s placed a child/children for adoption around their birthdays.
I just have a hard time with living normal life and trying to function as well sometimes around my girls birthdays that I’ve placed, ya know. I got a great letter from the mom of my girl that’ll be turning 2 this coming Tuesday last night and ending up bawling my eyes out.
Anyway, today’s been kind of a crappy day too and another crying fest. I’m really hurting about it and missing my girl like crazy right now. I just wish so bad that I could hold her in my arms again and I don’t know how I keep living and surviving with how much my heart hurts over this sometimes, ya know.
I just want to go hibernate until her birthday and placement day are all come and gone. It’s getting worse and more painful since Tuesday, her birthday’s, almost here and a lot closer now. I just want Thanksgiving to be over with already.
*Sighs* I don’t know why this seems harder for me right now, but for whatever reason it is and I feel alone because I’m living on my own away from home. I mean my parents and usual support system aren’t here.
I mean sure I can call them and I’ll see them soon enough when I go home on Thanksgiving break and I have friends and a boyfriend that tries to be helpful and comforting too, but it just seems harder right now…I don’t know.
I’ll survive somehow…just like I always do, but it still really sucks and hurts right now, ya know.